Uzaklarda bir yerde , bir tepede r\u00fczgar eser.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
Bilirsin ki r\u00fczgar O tepededir, seni bekler. \u0130\u00e7inde seni tutanlar\u0131nla, gidemezsin uzaklar\u0131na. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funu bilir o tepeler, gen\u00e7 bir k\u0131z olu\u015funa ve davullarla zurnalarla Baba evinden u\u011furlan\u0131\u015f\u0131na da \u015fahittir seni bekleyen r\u00fczgar, Seni ya\u015famak istemedi\u011fin bir kadere s\u00fcr\u00fckleyende O’dur asl\u0131nda. Bu y\u00fczdendir Zehra’n\u0131n k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 uzaklar\u0131na. K\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131, ela g\u00f6zl\u00fc Zehra. \u00dcniversite y\u0131llar\u0131mda tan\u0131d\u0131m Zehra’y\u0131. Ayn\u0131 ya\u015flardayd\u0131k. Bizim apartmanda ya\u015f\u0131yordu, ya\u015fl\u0131 Annesi, Babas\u0131 ve d\u00f6rt ya\u015f\u0131ndaki o\u011fluyla . Ama daha \u00f6nce hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmemi\u015ftim Zehra’y\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ilkbahar ve yaz d\u00f6nemlerinde k\u00f6ylerinde kal\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f. Bir ak\u015fam \u00fczeri okul d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc apartmanda kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m onunla. Elinde bir \u00e7uval, s\u0131rt\u0131nda o\u011fluyla merdivenleri \u00e7\u0131kmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan gen\u00e7 bir kad\u0131n gidiyordu \u00f6n\u00fcmde. Seslendim kendisine. \u0130sterseniz yard\u0131m edeyim kom\u015fum dedim Zehra’ya. Ba\u015f\u0131nda beyaz pullu bir yazmas\u0131 vard\u0131. Birka\u00e7 tutam k\u0131v\u0131rc\u0131k sa\u00e7\u0131, ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda sanki bir nehir gibi p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l akan g\u00f6zlerinin \u00fczerine serpilmi\u015fti. S\u0131rt\u0131nda ve elindeki y\u00fcke ra\u011fmen bana o g\u00fczel g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemesi ve \u00e7ekingen ifadesi ile olur dedi. O\u011flu S\u0131rt\u0131nda uyuya kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7uval\u0131n\u0131n bir ucundan tuttu\u011fumda anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m ki bir kabak meselesiydi bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck. Bir kahkaha bast\u0131m ki Zehra’ya. K\u0131zca\u011f\u0131z anlamad\u0131 tabi neden g\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc. Daha sonra ona anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m da o da \u00e7ok g\u00fcld\u00fc bu meseleye. Kabak mevsimi geldi\u011finde o kabaklar var ya hangi \u00e7uval\u0131n i\u00e7ine girip nereye gidece\u011fi konusunda kendisinin de hi\u00e7bir fikri bulunmayan, Be\u015fikd\u00fcz\u00fc – \u0130stanbul aras\u0131 m\u0131 yolculuk desem, Be\u015fikd\u00fcz\u00fc-Samsun aras\u0131 yolculuk mu desem , Be\u015fikd\u00fcz\u00fc – Ankara’m\u0131 desem bilemedim k\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn kabaklar\u0131n\u0131n f\u00fctursuzca s\u00fcr\u00fckleni\u015fini. Hele ki Anneannemin Be\u015fikd\u00fcz\u00fc’nden \u0130stanbul’a g\u00f6t\u00fcrmek istedi\u011fi kabak \u00e7uvallar\u0131 ise benim i\u00e7in tam bir kabustu . Otob\u00fcs Muavini ile kavgalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve de Harem ‘de aman biri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr \u00e7uvallar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kayg\u0131s\u0131 ile Kabak \u00c7uvallar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine zorla oturtulu\u015fum tam bir dramd\u0131 . Otogara \u00fc\u00e7 araba gelirdi bizi almaya .Babam, B\u00fcy\u00fck Day\u0131m ve K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck Day\u0131m. “Eksik kabak var m\u0131”n\u0131n kontrol edili\u015finden sonra y\u00fckleme i\u015flemi tamamlan\u0131r ve tabi ki bana \u00fc\u00e7 arabada da yer kalmazd\u0131 . Anneannemin belindeki ku\u015fak \u00e7uval\u0131n \u00fczerine at\u0131l\u0131r, bana yine kabak \u00e7uvallar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde yolculu\u011fumu tamamlama imkan\u0131 tan\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015fte t\u00fcm mesele buydu. Yani bir Kabak Meselesiydi t\u00fcm d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015flerimizin olmazsa olmaz\u0131 Zehra ile ile arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir kabak \u00e7uval\u0131 ile ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir g\u00fcn bana dedi ki “Ke\u015fke derdimiz sadece bal kaba\u011f\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131mak olsayd\u0131. En az\u0131ndan bu y\u00fck\u00fcn sonunda a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131zda \u015feker tad\u0131nda bir keyif kal\u0131r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi ile y\u00fck\u00fc \u00e7ekmek daha kolay m\u0131 olurdu bizim i\u00e7in. G\u00fcld\u00fck birlikte .Sonra da bizde bu \u015fans varken ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kabaklar bile kelek \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131 ya neyse dedi kaderine sitemkar bir ifadeyle.” Bense g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek ona , Anneannem derdi ki Zehra: “Y\u00fck\u00fcn hafif duruyorsa kabaklar\u0131n kelektir, y\u00fck\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rsa kabaklar\u0131n bal gibidir. “\u00c7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordum O’na. E\u015fi Zehra’y\u0131 karn\u0131nda \u00e7ocu\u011fu ve de biri alt\u0131 di\u011feri de be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda 2 k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu ile b\u0131rak\u0131p, ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131n u\u011fruna terk etmi\u015fti. Y\u00fck\u00fc a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 Zehra’n\u0131n. Annesi ve Babas\u0131 karn\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocuk erkek oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in kabul etmi\u015f, \u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ise yetimhaneye verdirtmi\u015flerdi. O Ela g\u00f6zleri bat\u0131k bir gemi y\u00fczerdi kirpiklerinin alt\u0131nda. G\u00fcc\u00fc kalmazd\u0131 o\u011fluna , o iki k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmekten. Annesine veriyordu o\u011flunu s\u00fcrekli ona baks\u0131n diye. Onu da uyurken izliyor, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na bo\u011fuluyordu ,uzaklar\u0131na onu \u00fcvey eden r\u00fczgar , o\u011flunu da kuca\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fman ediyordu sanki Zehra’n\u0131n. O\u011flunun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 imkan k\u0131zlar\u0131na tan\u0131nmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in ona yakla\u015fam\u0131yor , bir yandan da yavrusunu kalbinin \u00fczerine damgalamak istiyordu, onu da kimse elinden alamas\u0131n diye. Ayda bir k\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n hafta sonu yan\u0131na almas\u0131na izin veriliyordu Zehra’n\u0131n. O g\u00fcn her geldi\u011finde Zehra ile kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaktan \u00e7ok korkuyordum. G\u00f6zlerindeki mutlulu\u011fun dal\u0131nda kurumu\u015f bir sonbahar yapra\u011f\u0131 gibi, k\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc izlemek beni \u00e7ok ac\u0131t\u0131yordu. Bir ak\u015fam Zehra b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sevin\u00e7le yan\u0131ma gelmi\u015fti. Ordu’da Kuzenleri ya\u015f\u0131yordu Zehra’n\u0131n. Kuzenlerinden birinin ni\u015fan\u0131 vard\u0131. Anne Babas\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in Zehra’y\u0131 g\u00f6ndermeyi uygun bulmu\u015flard\u0131 ni\u015fana. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zehra Trabzon’dan ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir yere gitmemi\u015fti \u015fimdiye kadar. Bu onu \u00e7ok heyecanland\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hayat\u0131nda ilk defa k\u00f6y\u00fc d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bir yere gezmeye gidecekti. Benden ruj almaya gelmi\u015fti ni\u015fanda s\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in. \u0130lk defa onu bu kadar mutlu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Sanki ilk defa bir \u015feylerin kayg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymuyordu. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra bir ak\u015fam Zehra yan\u0131ma geldi a\u011flayarak. Ela g\u00f6zlerinden boncuk boncuk ak\u0131yordu g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131. Amcas\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu herkesin i\u00e7inde Zehra’ya tokat atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 ruj s\u00fcrd\u00fc diye. Zehra’da \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, ni\u015fan tak\u0131lmadan ilk otob\u00fcsle geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00fcm bunlar yetmiyormu\u015f gibi babas\u0131 ise Zehra’y\u0131 o ak\u015fam eve gelme saatini ka\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131 diye , bu arada saat daha 19:30 iken eve almad\u0131. Bana dertle\u015fmek i\u00e7in geldi\u011fi ak\u015fam dahi zehir olmu\u015ftu Zehra’ya. Bir k\u0131\u015f ak\u015fam\u0131yd\u0131. Hava ayaz, so\u011fuk. Zehra kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde babas\u0131na kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7mas\u0131 i\u00e7in yalvar\u0131yor, bense Zehra’y\u0131 bize gelmesi i\u00e7in ikna etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum. Ertesi g\u00fcn a\u00e7ar sinir ge\u00e7sin diyordum. Zehra a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da bense merdivenin ba\u015f\u0131na oturup Zehra’y\u0131 bekleyeme ba\u015flad\u0131m. K\u0131z o kadar \u00e7ok a\u011flad\u0131 ki a\u00e7mad\u0131 babas\u0131 kap\u0131y\u0131. Gece yar\u0131s\u0131na kadar hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemeden ikimizde apartman bo\u015flu\u011funda oturduk. \u00c7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fck. Zehra art\u0131k titremeye ba\u015flad\u0131. O p\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l bakan , zaman zaman nehir gibi akan o berrak g\u00f6zler , \u00e7aresiz bir ceylan gibi kayal\u0131klar\u0131n ard\u0131nda yitmi\u015fti sanki. Sanki art\u0131k onu kimse bulmas\u0131n istiyordu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Zehra’n\u0131n o \u00e7aresiz bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bir mendil i\u00e7ine saklay\u0131p , i\u00e7imdeki silinecek izler koleksiyonuma bir yenisini daha eklemi\u015ftim o ak\u015fam.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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